It seems as if everythings showing extreme potential. Its beautiful. I feel like the old alissa is back along with some of the new.

School should probably be shoved up ahead of watever else I'm putting before it besides god, but its not. Just yet.

My mother and I are getting better than I have seen since I was a child. I see awe when she shoots a glance at me. Its genuine love. I enjoy every second.

Bottom line, things are lookin' up!
Pray for this to continue.

I found that light of energy I needed, and it feels fantastic to be where I was before.

I'm picking up where I left off.
My faith still feels so far off.

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excuse my pessimism but...

I have never in my life felt a feeling like this before. (I guess its more of an emotion) These past few days have sucked. I no longer feel like I did before about anything. Nothings really the same. I don't feel up to interacting, or even standing. My insomnia has caused the hallusinations to start up again. I have no clue what's real anymore. School isn't working out. I don't feel up to hearing voices, and laughter. My list of priorities don't even exist anymore.

My moms being patient, but sooner or later we'll all be under that wave. I'm afraid. I'm afraid I won't get it back.

I'm exhausted.

home.

I guess this isn't so far up on my list anymore either.

These past 13 days have been long and hard. I don't understand much anymore. I guess I'm back to my whiny stage until I get the answer. I'm missing parts of myself. I think I somehow left my faith behind. All those pased hallways, and medication lines must have whiped it out. I'm sure ill get it back, but I understand that I need to find it before it's too late.

All I'm sure of is that I need to get out of here. I need to sleep. My insomnia is getting worse, and my eyes are completely strained.

Pray that I find It. All of it.