Today was better than usual. Exit exams are ridiculous. The bright side to it, was being able to see mr.doyles beautiful face for 4 hours. LORD jesus! God bless that man <3333 hah.

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Lunch was wierd. It was our usual group sitting. And I felt really apart. Left out. I don't know, but this has been happening a lot lately. I don't know if my friends resent me for anything, although I can't think of any reasons why they would, but its a thought. Nevermind I lied. I know exactly why.

As you know I'm leaving camarillo high to transfer to westlake, and colleen is the most upset. And you also know that Colleen has become a really close friend, and I have the ability to tell her almost everything, and she's making it so hard to leave camarillo. I mean I know she's one of THOSE people. The people you want to keep. I know if we actually cared we'd stay in contact with eachother, but what if one of us cares more than the other?

Besides that I'm becoming more and more distant with cynthia, and everyone else in camarillo. I'm sorta glad. I've recently met vivian, from identity of course. She is really inspiring, and I admire a lot of the things she does. I hope her and I become close friends.

My moms getting better, and stronger. I hope she doesn't go back, and my aunts here to stay. My sisters still miserable, and completely confused. I haven't seen it get this good, or this bad. But I'm handing it all to god, and I know it'll turn out ok.

In need of inspiration, and strength. Pray for me. Please.