today was exactly what I needed.

I didn't go to school, so that means I didn't take my exit exam and I'm just so thankful that there is a make up day for it. Tomarrow ill be going, and hopefully have a clear head.

Besides that, So much has been going on, so much I can't talk about. I feel like this overwhelming feeling has worstened. My mom is getting worse, my doubts are coming back. My sister has never been this miserable. I'm trying my best to look on the bright side. I'm trying my best to get through highschool. I'm trying my best to be the best I can be. I can't help but cry out for help. I really need help. And its so hard for me even to admit this all.

I went to identity, and forgot about this all. I saw those happy people who are so in love with god , and just felt so warm. I know I'm not "family" or anything, but I loved it. The worship was a bust at the begining, but we all loosened up. Hayley, luke, and I had a talk, and I'm just so worried for everyone. I know I can't play mama though.

God is so good, and I'm glad other people notice. Especially teenagers these days. I appreciate identity, and aaron, and all those kids who aren't "too cool" to meet new people, but sadly I think I'm going to leave. I don't know for sure yet, but I don't like the cliques, and the judgement. I know their trying. I just don't see a complete change.

Also, lately I've been needing new people. New godly people who know what its like. If you know someone, or are that someone like that. Don't be afraid to talk to me. I want to listen, and talk!

Sorry this was so cut up , and probably meaningless to you.