Let me just say:
This time change is tearing me apart.

This weekend has definately been the most boring weekend I've had in awhile. I didn't see comeback kid, I didn't hangout with friends. I sat , and ate, and sat some more. I feel like I waste so much of my life doing just that. Someday ill find some real adventurous friends. Friends who don't sit around and do the exact same thing.

I'm still trying to rid myself of this overwhelming feeling. I can't get rid of it. I had a panic attack today. Yeah, I'm thinkin what your thinkin'...I need help. I don't seem to know exactly what I need help with . School, friendship, faith, or just life? Its getting harder, and I wish god would take it easy. I mean I'm trying, your trying...isn't it enough?
These questions are never answered.

I feel like everyones moving away. Like we're all going in different directions, away from what we all thought we wanted not too long ago. I miss park walks, ice cream trucks,Library shushes, and puddles at the tennis courts. Sadly, I miss a lot. These memories never go away.

OH and, I think my moms considering the transfer back into westlake after spring break! I hope this fixes all these distractions , and helps me focus, because if not then I don't know what will.



I've been sober for about a month, no marijuanna, or anything. I think I can quit it for good. Actually, I know I can. Even if I don't have complete support from everyone around me.