This weekend was fantastic!

Friday brianna and I went over to colleens house, and watched some television, and a little bit of into the wild. Then we left for collision, wich was an amazing turn out. Tons of kids, and great bands. I'm so glad so many people helped out those african babies. Even people from camarillo went.

Saturday I enjoyed a day at lauras. We watched movies, and learned so much off the word of god. I enjoyed every second of that solitude. Hah

Today should be good. Church later, and then probably dinner. Or before that. I haven't showered in like two days, and everythings starting to come out of the wood work. I need to start focusing on school, but they don't know what I have to fix first. I need to get this in order first. Sometimes I think I'm just one of those kids. Those kids I ever so carelessly put down. The dropouts the failures. I don't know, maybe I'm just one of them.

I talked to my mom yesterday. She sounded like she did when I left her. I don't know if I can take hearing her for another day, yet another 2 or 3 years. She's unbearable. I don't know if my sister feels the same way, but I'm pretty sure she's about there.

These living arrangements are starting to get me confused, and I think I'm going to do Independent studies to catch up. I guess that's for the better. My "friends" probably won't see a difference anyway. I only have a few left. How long will it take till they're completely gone? I'm praying for stability, for change, and for me to help myself get out of this. Its so hard.

My faith is still strong. Pray for patience, strength, and stability. Even if this is vague just know I'm going through a lot.