As human beings, we need to know that we are not alone, that we are not crazy or completely out of our minds, that there are other people out there who feel as we do, live as we do, love as we do, who are like us. I have not found something that makes me feel that way for longer than an hour. I have not developed faith. I have not developed hope. I am stuck. I am miserable. You cannot even begin to imagine. I have everything I need except for that satisfactory sigh of relief at the end of the day. Goodbye. I tried. See you in hell.